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Dealing with News of Cancer Pt 2

'Huawei': A foreshadowing name?

Chinesepod's Carlie discusses the meaning of the name 'Huawei' in light of the recent national security concerns of the Whitehouse


Since Wednesday when I learned I probably have vaginal cancer, I have done lots of research. I have to hope that all of it is inclusion as it would not build up your faith. I am working on staying positive but waiting 10 days for result of a pap test and biopsy is hard on a person. I cry at night when I get ready to go to bed. During day I keep busy and don't try to dwell on it. The prayer partner team I belong to sent me the following: "My Lord is touched with the feelings of my infirmity. He was wounded and bore my stripes. He understands my deepest sorrows and woes of my heart. He bears my grief. Jesus wept with compassion and lover over Lazarus. He can take my burden and give me peace. He is a God of mercy. He reigns with power from above. His loving kindness never ceases. He will walk with me through the darkest night. His comfort and love is always there. He still opens blinded eyes and restores spiritual sight. I have a loving God who cares." I write this often as I am here and as you can see personalized it for me. Someone was nice enough to respond to me about my column and I pray they are truly blessed. They encouraged me to look cancer in the face and control it and not let it control me. They also encouraged me to smile even if it is hard. Also, an author friend of mine wrote a note encouragement. So my attitude most of the time is, "This is the first day of the rest of my life". We don't have any idea how long that is. I have a couple of other strikes against me too. My blood pressure was way high on Wednesday and my cholesterol is high and we haven't decided if I need treatment there. My husband and I hold each other once a day and cry together. I told my husband yesterday I was craving chocolate but he was already back home from his meeting. He went by the Dollar Store today and brought me home three candy bars. He planned supper so I wouldn't have to. He not only did that, but because I said my stomach was upset, he bought me Sprite. These types of things don't happen often to me. Don't wait until your spouse gets bad news to do the little things that could bring cheer. I take one moment at a time as that is all I can at this point. Last night I felt fine and still cannot believe I have this diagnosis. I wanted to cancel all the doctor's appointments. But then I knew I would never have peace of mind. So that is when I wept because it is still so unreal.